Day 6: Don’t Fix Me, Love Me. (Name something about your
appearance or personality that use to make you feel insecure or inadequate but
you have grown to love. Why are you
grateful for it? What changed your perspective?)
I’m perfectly flawed!
I’ve always been small or skinny as most people say! I wanted to be thicker as society had me
thinking that that was the only way “Real” women were made. I desired legs, butt, hips, breast and all
those things appealing. I would think to
myself I would look so much better if I was a little thicker. I’ve always thought I was cute J but I desired a nice
full body as well. I didn’t exercise because I didn’t want to get any skinnier
than I already was. I looked like a
lollipop… At least that was the joke.
Big head and little body. This
made me very insecure. But I knew I
needed to embrace who I was. I’m
grateful I can eat just about anything I want and not really have to worry
about gaining weight. Not that I eat any
and everything but I’m thankful my life doesn’t have to consist of
dieting. I’m happy I educated myself on
exercising and the benefits. I’m still
small but I have a little more definition to myself. LOL! No more stick pole jokes. The lollipop jokes just don’t go away. Life has a way of changing your
perspective. When I decided that what
you see is what you get I accepted my small frame. Honestly, I’m happy I’m petite. I’m in the best shape I’ve ever been in… I’m
happy for all the guys that thought I was cute but I was too skinny! Now, they
are either too big or with someone that they complain about being too big.
I’m perfectly flawed! I don’t trust easily. Growing up I didn’t understand the concept
that trust was earned and not given. I
would meet people, get good vibes, and hand over all my trust. You can only imagine what this has been like
over the years. After having my trust
broken time and time again, I finally grasped the concept of trust being earned
and not given. Now, I’m so to
trust. I’m more cautious about opening
up, communicating, and sharing me. I’m
not sure if it’s a good thing or bad thing.
Sometimes, it’s unfair to the individual but a girl can only have her
trust taken for granted so many times before she begins to guard it with all
she has. I don’t like for people to try
and rush me into trusting them. One
thing for certain is when I trust I do so explicitly. You have to earn it and once you break it, it’s
almost impossible to gain it back. I’m
perfectly flawed! Second chances are hard to come by with me. Don’t fix me, love me! We all have flaws but
we all are capable of loving and being loved…Flaws and ALL! What’s a home without a mess? What’s a person without flaws? Don’t fix me,
love me! I’m perfectly flawed.
Day 7: Gratitude (Make a list of things you are grateful
for, specifically focusing on things that you take for granted. We tend to place a higher value on what we
don’t have then what we do.)
About a week ago, I made a post on FB of some of the things
that make me happy! I’m grateful for parents that I call daily. We can get so accustomed to having our
parents readily accessible that we take them for granted. I’m grateful for sibling that I can count
on. They don’t always be in the places
that I WANT them to be but they are ALWAYS where I NEED them to be. More specifically the things I take for
granted but shouldn’t, I’m thankful for a place to call home, running water,
electricity, employment and my ability to communicate with any demographic… I’m
forever grateful that I enjoy writing. I’m
thankful for hot baths after miles of running.
I’m thankful for reliable transportation, big fluffy bath towels, and
most importantly peace of mind!